Frustration can kill, and I thank I'm breathing my last puff of oxygen in here.
oh geez.
ESS has their first day of school tomorrow, and here i am, lounging about in arizona. i can now see the possibilities of going back to the philippines is virtually
stick-slim.
[stick-slim || adj.; as slim as a.. stick.okay, that was pointless. -o-;;]
when we were enjoying universal studios, i threw in about a hundred pennies (fifty. twenty. ten. okay, two. but it's my maximum throw-a-penny-in-the-fountain rate!) wishing god that i'd be able to go back to the philippines. that way i'd be back there with my friends. i would speak to them in the same time zone. most importantly, i won't need to explain to them how much i'll miss the hell out of them because i'm staying two years in america.
but as i said earlier, chances are
stick-slim and i have a day to debate whether to tell them this or not. because i'm certain that once first day of school had passed, they'd all see me online in YM and ask me why i wasn't even present during our first day.
my mom had insisted that i don't tell a soul about this. which literally made me so frustrated. she wasn't the one who had problems leaving behind her bestest, truest friends. she was happy enough to reach america that she didn't even have the guts to be sad about leaving her old time buddies. while i, am just a frigging kid. like normal teenagers i miss my friends and i wanna go back to see them and discuss everything about life with them (that included my unending passion for anything korean).
but the lack of freedom of just telling them, sorry, i love you guys, i'll miss you guys because i can't go back to the philippines for two years just made me burn in frustration. before i get all angsty, let me stop right here. LOL. fortose who wanna console me, there's always the c-box! ^^;; wuv ya guys.
a few of my DBSK graphics.. [to those people who are not my friends and are scouting for pics to steal,
DO NOT STEAL! RAWR!]

Labels: First day of School, Frustrated, Gonna miss it since I'm in friggin' Arizona